I know it may be a little too late to ask myself that question. Eliza is almost 4 1/2 years old. Should've asked myself that question 6 years ago. When you are trying to have a baby, you look forward to the baby stuff: the baby smell, breastfeeding, rocking baby to sleep... you don't think ahead to the preschool years, the tween years and the the teen years. Sure you look ahead and think about all of the fun stuff you can do together and think about the person your beautiful newborn will be come 5, 10, 15, 25 years down the road, but as you are holding you precious little baby you honestly can't imagine the stress you will feel once she learns how to push your buttons. Eliza has all of a sudden turned into a ball of attitude and I feel like I don't know how to change that. I know I am not the only mother who deals with this, but it is just a difficult "phase" that I am facing with her right now. She has such a good heart, always thinks of others, but she can get mad so easily these days. I know she tends to yell because we have yelled on occasion ( or maybe more than that ) and I am working so hard on changing my own behavior. I feel like this may be a preamble to what I will face when she becomes a teenager, so something needs to be done about it now, I just don't know where to start. I know I am the one in control here. I am the adult, 31 years old and should not feel that a 4 year old is holding the reins.
So this is the start of a new day. I pray that God gives me the strength to be patient and keep my control with my children and teaches me to be the best mom that I can be...
Let it be known that I love my children both more than anything in this world. I could not imagine life without them and I just want them to be the best people that they can be.
