Ok, let's try this again...

So I realize I am not the blogger I was hoping I was cut out to be. Last blog was almost 2 months ago. I am still just starting out, so give me a break!!!! Catching Up... Eliza went to her first birthday party where she was to be dropped off. I can't believe I just left my baby at some random home with some random people I barely know. They are random because I just "met" these people 2 months ago while dropping Eliza off at school. Apparently preschool is not for learning, but for seeing how many invitations you can receive to little kids birthday parties. I am going to go broke, not from preschool tuition, but for buying birthday gifts for kids I don't even know! Anyways, I am going off course...as I pulled away from the house it hit me...I am losing a little piece of my baby girl, she is growing up and doesn't need me by her side. I feel like I need her by my side and I am 31 years old. I didn't get to watch her pin the nose on the clown for the first time or play musical chairs for the first time or decline a piece of birthday cake because it was chocolate (really? who doesn't like chocolate??) I could feel my heart get heavy. My little baby is growing way to fast. How does that happen? Suck it up, Becky! Chris was at home, probably watching a baseball game and didn't think twice about it. I picked up Eliza after 2 hours and she looked older. Impossible? Nope. I just want to roll her up in a ball and keep her little forever!!! And Max is going to be 3 in June. He is saying words I didn't know he knew! He is such a little lover, gives kisses all the time, he makes my heart melt. I am lucky to be the mother to these two amazing children. Parenting is the most difficult job in the world, but I love every minute of it. P.S. I have been busy working on my baby t-shirts that I have been wanted to do for years not. I will put up a preview soon so you can all see what I have been working on!! Enjoy your weekend!!

Am I really cut out for this?!

I know it may be a little too late to ask myself that question. Eliza is almost 4 1/2 years old. Should've asked myself that question 6 years ago. When you are trying to have a baby, you look forward to the baby stuff: the baby smell, breastfeeding, rocking baby to sleep... you don't think ahead to the preschool years, the tween years and the the teen years. Sure you look ahead and think about all of the fun stuff you can do together and think about the person your beautiful newborn will be come 5, 10, 15, 25 years down the road, but as you are holding you precious little baby you honestly can't imagine the stress you will feel once she learns how to push your buttons. Eliza has all of a sudden turned into a ball of attitude and I feel like I don't know how to change that. I know I am not the only mother who deals with this, but it is just a difficult "phase" that I am facing with her right now. She has such a good heart, always thinks of others, but she can get mad so easily these days. I know she tends to yell because we have yelled on occasion ( or maybe more than that ) and I am working so hard on changing my own behavior. I feel like this may be a preamble to what I will face when she becomes a teenager, so something needs to be done about it now, I just don't know where to start. I know I am the one in control here. I am the adult, 31 years old and should not feel that a 4 year old is holding the reins.
So this is the start of a new day. I pray that God gives me the strength to be patient and keep my control with my children and teaches me to be the best mom that I can be...

Let it be known that I love my children both more than anything in this world. I could not imagine life without them and I just want them to be the best people that they can be.

I did it...and I'm not sure how happy I am...

So we finally broke down and put a tv in Eliza's bedroom. She is only 4 years old and I see no point in her having her own tv. But, ever since she was 2 she will not fall asleep in her own room. Right after Max was born, she got a very bad bladder infection and was so sick so we put her in bed with us. BIG MISTAKE! That was over 2 years ago and she is still in our bed. And her little skinny body takes up the most space too! Chris and I said we would put a tv in there (without cable...does that make it better?) so she could watch a movie and fall asleep to it. Well we did it last night and it actually worked. She fell asleep at her usual time with the tv on, but in her own room. I was happy and felt guilty at the same time. I did have a tv in my room growing up and I turned out somewhat normal, right?!
Anyways, she did shuffle her little body quietly into our room around 3 in the morning and plopped herself right between my legs (very comfortable, let me tell you) but Chris and I got to go to bed and finally spoon again. Haven't done that in a while. Maybe this means more "mommy & daddy" time and we can practice for baby #3. Wait...What?!?!

Kiddy Crafts!

Going through my new year's to do list and I have already checked off a few things. Some are ongoing, like doing more crafts & hand-on activites with my kids. Yesterday was a great day for that. It snowed like crazy so we played in it, made snow slushies and made paper mache bowls. The bowls turned out pretty cool, we may start a family business!!!

Gripe of the Day

I normally consider myself a pretty patient & positive person and I don't like to bitch too much, but...Why is it everytime I go to Tim Hortons and ask for a PLAIN Bagle, just plain...they have to ask if I want it toasted, sliced or with cream cheese?!?! Come on Moron! I said plain, do you need a dictionary?! Just stick your little hand into the bin, grab a plain bagel and stick it in a bag. It is not that hard!!!
Ahhh, I feel so much better!

Let the good times roll...

Thought it was about time to introduce Eliza to the wonderful world of bowling. What fun! I like to bowl... once a year or so. Chris asked if I wanted to join a Ma & Pa league again (we were in one before children). Like I said, I like to bowl...once a year or so, not every week, when you have to wait your turn cause someone on your team is at the bar or in the bathroom. You get the idea.

ANYWAYS, this post was to be about Eliza and her first bowling experience. She was so cute in those bowling shoes. She got a 99 her first game, but quickly got too bored for another game. Now obviously Chris had a hand in helping her get such a good score, but who cares, she potty shotted (is that a word?) that ball like a champ!!!

So the 2nd day of the new year and we have already done something fun as a family (minus Max because there is no way in hell he would stay in our area, he'd be all over the ally!). I said the new year would be full of new adventures & creative ideas and we are well on our way!!

Enjoy some pics!

Ok, well here I am. Starting my first ever blog post. Don't know the lingo yet, don't even know if this post is going to show up on my page, don't know if there are rules to writing a blog (do you make paragraphs, or just one long run-on post, blah, blah, blah...) Starting a blog was just one of my New Year's "to do's." Right under the typical lose 10 pounds, be more patient with my kids and husband, be more "Green", get more organized around the house, (which in return will keep the chaos to a minimum in my head)...Actually I want to be more creative, which I am, totally. I have an interior design degree, love art, color, crafts, cooking, baking and design, but I rarely get the chance to be creative. I take care of 2 ADORABLE children and teach fitness classes, how creative is that? So 2011 is my year to use my creativity again. Here they are are:
Start a blog-Check!
Do more crafts with my children
Start a gift basket business (I've always wanted to do my own little business!)
Be more creative in the kitchen
Start a garden and compost
Just be more creative in general
Those are the things I want to accomplish in the upcoming year.
I will keep my first post at that. I haven't mentioned anything about my children, Eliza & Max or my family, but you will definitely read more about them in the future, after I figure out this blogging thing-a-ma-jig...